( To say that what happened during the festival was draining would be putting it lightly. It wasn't just the heavy conversation that Monika had with Asriel that made him feel that way, but what had happened in the Hall of Mirrors. He's been a bit more distant lately, but hopefully it's nothing that's been noticeable. He doesn't want to alarm their sibling or cause any suspicion that something happened.
Still, there were some things that stuck with Asriel. If it wasn't Chara's last words over the network, it was what Monika had told him. He knew that Monika truly did want to help, and maybe... it was the first time he felt a bit understood since becoming himself again.
He's not really sure what to make of anything he's found out so far. He knows that things could never really be the same for himself or Chara, but... things are much more complicating than he first thought.
He's in the process of getting ready for bed for the evening when he decides to speak to Chara. Paw-like hands lean on his comforter - feet barely touching the floor as he sits on the edge of his bed. )
[Unfortunately, or fortunately depending on your view of things, events conspired to keep Chara from attending the event and thus they were unaware of what had happened to Asriel. And also not seeming to notice anything different going on with their sibling.
ANYWAY, when Asriel speaks up? Chara was also getting ready to head to bed, so mid-PJ putting on is just when the monster child catches them. Of course they finish getting changed before replying.]
It's what he's been telling himself. In reality, they aren't so sure anymore. Chara's lied to them about something far too big for Asriel ever brush off. )
In... the bad timeline that you and Frisk shared. Did you ever-- gain any LOVE?
( How many consequences did Frisk's actions have? And, what damage can be done here as a result? )
[Chara would totally lie, as they go and sit on their own bed. Absently kicking their feet as they think over how to answer the question posed to them.
Technically speaking it was gaining LOVE that woke them up, but can they really tell Asriel that?]
I wasn't the one going around killing everyone, so what do you think?
[Looks like they're not going to tell Asriel everything.]
( The answer only makes Asriel shift uncomfortably. There's something that doesn't add up. Beforehand, he would have accepted anything Chara told him, but after everything that's happened between them - things have changed. )
... After-- our plan ended up failing, I... think Mom brought you to the ruins. ( It's hard to talk about, but Asriel knows the every corner of the Underground like the back of his hand now. Chara's coffin was empty. )
When Frisk fell, it was on golden flowers-- in the same place I found you, too. Mom was there everyday, doing her best to take care of them.
And then when I met Frisk -- I... always thought you were with them.
( If what Chara said was true -- if Frisk had awoken Chara from death, then it doesn't make sense. Why would they only meet Frisk at the end of it all? )
[They remain silent as Asriel talks, of course they're aware of their relocation from New Home to the Ruins. But again that is something they don't plan on telling their brother.
And they remain quiet for a while after Asriel is done talking, because again? How do they explain things?]
It was them gaining LOVE that woke me up, their Determination and want for power and all that kind of stuff did it.
[Not an outright lie, but also not the whole truth either.]
( Asriel only wishes that Frisk had known better. They should have, after meeting him.
They don't seem bothered by what Asriel is telling them. For some reason, he still feels uneasy... It feels like he's missing something out of all of this. )
... Okay, Chara. I trust you.
I'm... I'm sorry. I know that it must have been really scary.
... But, it's easier to hurt others. It's... easier not to care.
( He can feel himself relax when Chara sits next to him. He has no arguments in having Chara near him. Instead, he'll let his shoulders bump gently against his sibling's.
He smiles at that. )
It's felt kind of like a dream. I... I didn't think I'd be able to spend time with you again.
... Yeah. A-At least... when I was a flower-- it ended up like that.
( But it was that -- along with being desperate to feel anything at all that made it like that. Asriel knew that that wasn't the same for Frisk. After all, they had a SOUL. They still had a life to live.
Still, despite everything that Chara has told Asriel, they still believe so strongly in Frisk. He only wishes he knew more about what they were thinking when... they had hurt others.
His expression falls then, looking down. In a sense, he thinks, they've both died at home. He was no longer himself, after all. It's too late to regret anything, but he wishes that he had done more to protest to Chara's plan. )
Y... Yeah... but... you have a second chance here.
( That does earn more giggles from them! Asriel responding with quick pokes of their own. )
... I... don't really want to go back home... ( Even if he did, he doesn't think he'll see anyone again. There's no reason for monsters to go to the Underground anymore, muchless the ruins. It's better that way. ) ... But, if we're here -- then we can protect everyone.
... If I go home... I think I'll stop being myself again. I... I don't want to break their hearts again. It's better if they don't see me.
Besides, Frisk-- ( He hesitates. He knows Frisk is a bit of a rough subject for the both of them right now. ) -- they promised they'd take care of Mom and Dad.
What about you, Chara? I... don't want you to be alone, either.
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Still, there were some things that stuck with Asriel. If it wasn't Chara's last words over the network, it was what Monika had told him. He knew that Monika truly did want to help, and maybe... it was the first time he felt a bit understood since becoming himself again.
He's not really sure what to make of anything he's found out so far. He knows that things could never really be the same for himself or Chara, but... things are much more complicating than he first thought.
He's in the process of getting ready for bed for the evening when he decides to speak to Chara. Paw-like hands lean on his comforter - feet barely touching the floor as he sits on the edge of his bed. )
... Hey, Chara.
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ANYWAY, when Asriel speaks up? Chara was also getting ready to head to bed, so mid-PJ putting on is just when the monster child catches them. Of course they finish getting changed before replying.]
Something wrong, Asriel?
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It's alright.
Chara wouldn't lie. Chara's his best friend.
It's what he's been telling himself. In reality, they aren't so sure anymore. Chara's lied to them about something far too big for Asriel ever brush off. )
In... the bad timeline that you and Frisk shared. Did you ever-- gain any LOVE?
( How many consequences did Frisk's actions have? And, what damage can be done here as a result? )
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Technically speaking it was gaining LOVE that woke them up, but can they really tell Asriel that?]
I wasn't the one going around killing everyone, so what do you think?
[Looks like they're not going to tell Asriel everything.]
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... After-- our plan ended up failing, I... think Mom brought you to the ruins. ( It's hard to talk about, but Asriel knows the every corner of the Underground like the back of his hand now. Chara's coffin was empty. )
When Frisk fell, it was on golden flowers-- in the same place I found you, too. Mom was there everyday, doing her best to take care of them.
And then when I met Frisk -- I... always thought you were with them.
( If what Chara said was true -- if Frisk had awoken Chara from death, then it doesn't make sense. Why would they only meet Frisk at the end of it all? )
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And they remain quiet for a while after Asriel is done talking, because again? How do they explain things?]
It was them gaining LOVE that woke me up, their Determination and want for power and all that kind of stuff did it.
[Not an outright lie, but also not the whole truth either.]
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They don't seem bothered by what Asriel is telling them. For some reason, he still feels uneasy... It feels like he's missing something out of all of this. )
... Okay, Chara. I trust you.
I'm... I'm sorry. I know that it must have been really scary.
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You don't need to be sorry, you're not the one who did anything wrong.
[Sometimes they wonder about Asriel's apologies.]
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But, you... you woke up alone, and to a timeline like that.
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[Said as if it wasn't the worst thing ever to wake up to everyone you know is dead.]
And I wasn't alone, I had Frisk.
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But, if Frisk had a lot of LOVE, then I know that they weren't themselves.
The Frisk I met... they didn't have any. They were really nice.
I'm... I'm just really glad that you're here now.
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LOVE doesn't change who you are at your core, at least not that much.
[And now they're moving off their bed to head over to Asriel's, and if he'll let them they're going to sit on the bed next to him.]
I'm glad you're here too, Asriel.
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( He can feel himself relax when Chara sits next to him. He has no arguments in having Chara near him. Instead, he'll let his shoulders bump gently against his sibling's.
He smiles at that. )
It's felt kind of like a dream. I... I didn't think I'd be able to spend time with you again.
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[For them it helped that they never cared much in the first place, so the LOVE they have didn't seem to affect that part of them at all.
And hey, they're totally going to return the shoulder bump with one of their own.]
Yeah well... Dying kind of makes that hard to do.
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( But it was that -- along with being desperate to feel anything at all that made it like that. Asriel knew that that wasn't the same for Frisk. After all, they had a SOUL. They still had a life to live.
Still, despite everything that Chara has told Asriel, they still believe so strongly in Frisk. He only wishes he knew more about what they were thinking when... they had hurt others.
His expression falls then, looking down. In a sense, he thinks, they've both died at home. He was no longer himself, after all. It's too late to regret anything, but he wishes that he had done more to protest to Chara's plan. )
Y... Yeah... but... you have a second chance here.
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[They only know what Asriel had told Frisk, because as much as they haven't told their brother about what they know, they know that much.
And they see that drop in Asriel's expression, so they smile and give another shoulder bump.]
So do you, you know? And it's not something to look so sad about.
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( After all, the more he hurt others -- the easier it was to do. Wouldn't it have been the same?
When Chara bumps Asriel's shoulder, he can't help but smile at that - poking at his sibling in a playful, teasing but encouraging manner. )
Heheh, yeah - you're right! It'd be really nice if we could both stay here.
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[They let out a small ack at being playfully poked, and they will playfully poke Asriel right back.]
Maybe we can, once the whole... You know, dumb reason we're brought here for is all fixed, they'll let us stay or something like that.
[Because yes, to them saving worlds is dumb.]
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... It'd... be really nice if we could always be together here.
But, I want to help everyone at home, too. All the monsters at home are finally able to live on the surface...
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Well, maybe they can do something that'll let us go back and forth? So then we can stay together and you can help people back home.
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... I... don't really want to go back home... ( Even if he did, he doesn't think he'll see anyone again. There's no reason for monsters to go to the Underground anymore, muchless the ruins. It's better that way. ) ... But, if we're here -- then we can protect everyone.
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But they do stop with the poking at what Asriel says about not wanting to go home.]
I guess so, but what about Mom and Dad? [They tilt their head to one side.] You need them more than you need me, you know.
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... If I go home... I think I'll stop being myself again. I... I don't want to break their hearts again. It's better if they don't see me.
Besides, Frisk-- ( He hesitates. He knows Frisk is a bit of a rough subject for the both of them right now. ) -- they promised they'd take care of Mom and Dad.
What about you, Chara? I... don't want you to be alone, either.
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I'm fine with being alone, I'm used to it after all.
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( They... sort of know that firsthand. )
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